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20th-Jul-2012 01:55 am - O.O
*ouch*
Oooookay. I'm currently struggling since RL is eating me. Alive. ARGH~!

Need. An .Effin. Break. *sniffs*
5th-Jan-2012 10:54 pm - Yup. Still alive.
Squall and Cloud
I must say that the past year had been really rough.

A few months ago, the whole family and I were caught up in a battle that we thought we would win. My youngest female cousin--Wendy--was diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma, or 'cancer of the lymph nodes' in simpler terms. It was last August 2011 that we were given the news; we were told that it was curable, and as I'm also in the medical field, also believed it as such. Reading up articles about lymphoma, every book my pathologist/boss lent me was browsed--I was confident that she'll survive. Everyone in the family was supportive and had faith that she'll be back in school in no time, that we'll be able to hold her 18th birthday, that she'll be going to the university of her choice.

Unfortunately, those plans will never take place.

Her chemotherapy started in September up until October 2011. She had a few infections and was brought to the hospital immediately-- we were given the word that it was due to her chemotherapy. Then came October 31,2011. It's probably one of the those moments that will forever haunt me. The entire household was in chaos as we woke up to find Wendy having a seizure. I was frozen for a moment, then managed to get the car keys and hand them to my grandfather--I was able to open the our gate, call my aunt about what happened and even grabbed a few clothes and a pair of slippers for my uncle, who in his panic, managed to get to the hospital barefoot. Getting to the hospital and seeing my frail cousin lying in there was too much. A mantra kept resounding in my head: "Hindi ka pwede umiyak. Hindi nya pwede makita na malungkot o natatakot kayo." (I can't afford to cry, I can't let them see how worried or scared I was"). So I just smiled at her and said that she gave me quite a scare. I can say that she took a few years of my life back then! I asked her of she remembered anything, but she told me that she can't recall anything. She had 2 more seizures, and both of it happened before my eyes. I could only shout and call for help. My other aunt began crying as she latched on to me. She kept asking me what's happening--why was Wendy having those seizures--I could only hug her back and silently cried, answering her questions with 'I don't know.'

We were instructed to get her an MRI. And the results yielded broke my heart. Her lymphoma had metastasized to her brain. It was considered a Stage 4 cancer already. But we forged on; prayers were a constant, her chemotherapy was pushed through, we visited her as much as we could.

Then came November 21, 2011. Our dear Princess finally closed her eyes in eternal sleep.

I could never explain the pain we all felt. I will never forget how broken my uncle's voice was when he told me the news. I will never forget how my cousin--her older sister--told me not to say what happened. She caught me with tears on my face and began sobbing. I just held her as we both cried.

The following week was exhausting; physically, mentally, emotionally. I managed to get sick (fever, colds, cough! DX) but I still went every night to her wake for a whole week.

It's been only 45 days since she left and people can tell that the grief and pain is still fresh, and that we're still mourning her passing.

I must admit I shed a few tears here and there while sharing this :P but I can't help but smile too; Her battle with cancer may have been one of the most painful things I witnessed but it was the way she lived her life to the fullest makes me damn proud. All of our memories with her makes me quirk up my lips and place a smile on my face. She was one who can't accept seeing long faces :D

And now due to her influence and insistence, Nicki Minaj's Super Bass will never be removed from my playlist. :)
14th-Aug-2011 12:48 am - ...Heads up!
Cloud
Okay. I don't think I'll be going to the cosplay thingie this October: One--I've been planning to go to Singapore; Two--Something came up within the family. Someone close to me has a cancer-like illness. With that, I'll probably cancel anything for the next 3-6 months. I don't think I'll be able to update my LJ too,except for facebook (for communication purposes).
12th-Jul-2011 07:41 pm - . . .
Yuu
The week's been too busy. Again. *headdesk*

I've been making a QC data sheet for the clinic I work for. And I must say, I hate managing statistical data. Using MS Excel and its formulas are a pain. ☆⌒(>。≪)イタイ!

Among other things, I finally found someone who'll make my costume~! She'll be shouldering everything--all I've got to do is pay! ^^ Even though I want to make it from scratch, honestly with my work and schedule, I don't think it's possible. T.T

Now, all I have to do is find someone who makes swords, a nice pair of boots and dye my hair. (Dyeing my hair would be a fickin' pain in the butt---it'll really cost me a LOT of monies. T_____T)
28th-Jun-2011 07:51 pm - Yuu-chan~!
Yuu
...Since my friend had asked and persuaded me to join, I'll be cosplaying Kanda Yuu (from DGM!) in an event on October this year.


LKJGFKAJSFKAJSFKLAJHFKA.


I know it's 3 months away, but hell~~hopefully I'll have the time to gather everything I need.*headdesk*


...Good thing I haven't had a haircut in like--2 years! XDDDD My hair's already up to my waist~~XD
23rd-Jun-2011 06:37 pm - Whoah~!
*ouch*
...Almost cracked my skull open earlier when I was headed for work. O_O

It has been raining nonstop, since morning. As such, all roads and sidewalks are slippery and full of puddles. And because of one particular godforsaken puddle, I almost slipped--a good thing a fellow commuter saw me and helped in time. *shivers*

AND! I hate you MMDA. You and your fucking 'counterflows' suck. GRRRRR.
16th-Jun-2011 09:38 pm - Fail is me. *headdesk*
*ouch*
...SO! I just realized that I had ACCIDENTALLY DELETED a VERY IMPORTANT folder while I was busy transferring tons of files from my old laptop to my new one. A folder containing:

1. 4-years worth of MP3s--some of which I wouldn't be able to find;
2. A few stories that my best friend had been wanting to read (done by me XD);
3. A LOT of pics (anime, RL, whatnot)



...I need to find a wall to bash my head with. Or even have a vendo machine thrown at me *poinstoicon*
9th-Jun-2011 07:25 pm - Asthmaaaa.>.>
R + triangle   XD
I hate the weather~! Damn it for triggering my asthma~! *wheezes*

Been reading and watching a bunch of things lately, ranging from school books, animanga and fiction-related ones:

1. Inkdeath: Geez. I haven't made any progress yet. I'm still stuck in chapter 2. *must pick this up again*
2. Katekyo Hitman Reborn!: Okay. Lately, I'm finding the series less and less interesting. I caught up with the latest chapter and I could only sigh in defeat. *facepalms*
3. Fairy Tail: Not yet finished with with episodes 30 and above, but I'm updated with the manga :D
4. Naruto: I love Minatooooooo! *squeeeee* And though I'm not really fond of the Raikage, meeh. You gave us a near-nekkid Naruto in Blood Prison. *squeeee again*
5. Kuroshitsuji: Sebastian is pawned by Lizzy. Lizzy is just~~akdgdfgakdh!
6. Lab books (titles are long and complicated XD): Need to update thy knowledge in the field!!

Ugh. Still haven't gotten an appointment for my interview for the passport and still need a new copy of my birth certificate.*headdesk*
21st-May-2011 11:54 pm - ...ZERO. T__T
Iggy


Zerooooo. I miss my baby boy T_________T
16th-May-2011 09:11 pm - ... ̄Д ̄ =3 ハァ
Iggy
..RL sucks.

Too busy. Shitty month. Effin' family issues. Temp's too hot. ARGHHHH.
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